"So do not let the pain of a situation make you hopeless. Do not let negativity wear off on you. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Even though others may disagree with you, take pride in the fact that you still know the world to be an amazing place. Carry on accordingly."
I used to visit the site Marc and Angel Hack Life every now and then for a little inspiration, but until today it had probably been a good year or so since I had checked it out. I'm pretty glad that I did.
The above quote was my favorite from the post and it hit close to home. RPL really has taken its toll on me: emotionally, mentally, and physically. It's changed the way I view life and I'm certainly not nearly as naive as I used to be.
"Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness"That's one that I need to remember. I think I've wrote here before about all of the experiences and feelings that RPL has robbed me of and how much it's changed me. But I shouldn't let it.
I hope that soon I can find peace with everything that we've gone through and I can learn to steal back my sweetness. I may not be the same person as I was a year ago and that's okay. But I need to work to get the sweetness back because it's always been of my core characteristic and I want to steal back myself.
It's so fitting that I am reading this today, on a day filled with sweetness and light. I think I keep almost crying not just out of happiness but also that I can feel a little happiness despite everything. It's been so much pain, so much disappointment. But now, a little bit of perfect. It's all too much for me.
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you ever fully overcome the bitterness, but maybe it can be tempered by the sweet. I am hoping you get your sweetness soon. <3